South in a Northbound Lane

2 steps forward 1 step back
Whats done is done should i attack?
A moment of contemplation
Revealed righteous indignation
Those who mind dont matter
Those who matter don't mind
And the ones you thought who cared the most
Never apoligized

Sanitized and white washed
Perception black and white
Those who do.. best those don't
The way of things in life
Demons dressed in skin suits
An Influence peddling game
Lookin for my heaven
 Goin south in the northbound lane

Tragedy of circumstance
The cowards run away
The sickness of the soul it seems
Multiplied the pain

Driven to my knees
Cause i had nowhere else to go
Waiting on some schadenfreude
On those who did me wrong
Demons dressed in skin suits
An Influence peddling game
Lookin for my heaven
 Goin south in the northbound lane

What Hell is This
I saw something on the tv
Nothin nice quite disturbing
Heavy handed rhetoric by
Those who claim to have the fix
Bodies mount up on the weekend
Black on black don't see it ending
Load the guns with double barrels
What hell is this  Chicago

Corruption of the well intentioned
In the D.C. bubble fornicating
Pay for play or pay the price
Nothing fair nothing nice

State of shame
What hell is this
Who's to blame what's the game
What hell is this.... the angels left los Angeles

Crucify you to destroy you
Paid to lie and manipulate  you
Play along or pay the price
Nothing true nothing nice

State of shame
What hell is this
Who's to blame what's the game
What hell is this.... only the good die dumb
Lead
Pay attention use your voice
Question first before your choice
Open doors for open minds
Lost is reason to be kind
Empty bottles broken dreams
What hell is this  I'm gonna scream
Opioids to kill the pain
What hell is this  this hell remains

My Daughter Hates Me

When she young a daddy's girl
A precious gift to my world
Inspired me to work real hard
So she could be her best be a star
But with parenting comes discipline
Unplesantries of righteousness
Instead of talk i tend to yell
and scream Out warnings to no avail

Damn it stop it oh shit

My daughter hates me
What do i do now
My daughter hates me
She said see ya dad I'm out
My daughter hates me
Cause i scream and yell
My daughter hates me
Can't take it back can't take it down

Damn it stop it oh shit

I tell myself she's a grown up
I don't know how
To let go of all control of her
Don't want to let her down
But i can't help to pitch a fit
When i see her falling down
Do i do nothing when i see it coming
When i think she's headed for a cliff

Damn it stop it oh shit

walk away

It's the same ol story told another way
When you know it's time to turn the page
You made me feel like I'm hard to love
I'm not giving up but I've had enough

You think of me as a tool.      i walk away
Ridiculed and made a fool.      i walk away
Knowing how you really feel.    i walk away
When there is nothing left to say i walk away

It didn't  have to be this way
Pushed me till i couldn't stay
I did all that i know to do
Told me I'm of no value to you
I walk away


I'm tired of fighting i need relief
I walk away and start to grieve
I can't lose respect i never had
When you call another one your dad

You think of me as a tool.       i walk away
Ridiculed and made a fool.       i walk away
Knowing how you really feel.     i walk away
When there is nothing left to say i walk away

carry on

Im getting old im gettin cranky
Im gettin tired im gettin achey
What ever i tried to do was never enough
I 've been put on out to pasture
My relationships disasters
At this time i really think
I 've had enuf

There is no love
No respect
No words of wisdom To reflect
regret of circumstance
To right the wrong
I done my part
I done my best
I done it with the best intent
Should i check out or
Hang around and carry on

Carry on

s n l

Sought fame and fortune
But compromised
Used your ass and pretty eyes
Let the power brokers
Sexualize
All you could see was
 dollar signs

It worked for years
No one could tell
Untill you lost yourself
In the stench and hell
Drugs and alcohol
Brought it down
You been satirized
On SNL

Starlet status over
Looks no longer sell
Socially abandon
You've been paid
 not to tell
Fortune making over
Fame is now a joke
You been satirized
On SNL

run for cover

Sometimes I've been so critical
Sometimes i get  hysterical
Sometimes get to  political
Sometimes i feel to cynical

Whatever happened to common sense
What happened to mutual respect
Why is there no recompense
Divide and conquer is current culture

Everything is upside down
The anti fascist are the fascist now
Just because I'm white and middle aged
Don't make me a member of the kkk

Get yourself a job make yourself a life
Buy yourself a ride  rent yourself a wife
 build  it all up.  tear it all down
Can't run and hide. Gotta play it out

What cha gonna do
Run for cover
What cha gonna do
Run for cover What cha gonna do
Run for cover run for cover
What cha gonna do

she

She's got a look so devastating  /like a woman of means
In control of all her facilities /she do  as she please
Often pushed underestimated / fragility
 paints her lips like candy /when she's ready to feed

She's got the power
Bring a man to his knees
A Madonna in public
A freak in the sheets

She's electric/ shootin sparks at me
She's a beauty/untill you make her a beast
Makes a strong man stronger/the weaker weak
Paints her lips like candy/when she's ready to breed

Devastating  /bring ya to your knees
She's electric/do as she please
Got the power/ready to feed
She's a beauty/she's a woman indeed

noise

Crippled by the noise
Exploding heads of paranoia
Doesn't anybody here
Want peace
Judgement of your brother
Shaming of the mothers
Ideologies
Taken to the streets
Chng
 look at what we done
Taken serious for fun
And the ignorance of youth
Been put to sleep
Chng
Intro
Give them what they need
For reciprocity
Over time they'll come to see
Our divinity
Create dependency of thought
Eliminate the ones who fought
Useful idiots won't believe
That they're not free
Chg
Intro
Prepare the ones to come
In principles of right and wrong
Not suffer fools who come to take
Your liberty
your history
your energy
your sanity
your divinity

the end

Im feelin callous today
I've been a fool
Science cant fix what iam
Without you
Trapped in a poor mans body
With a rich mans blood
Ive never been to the edge
Without falling off

Close to the end
Wish there was more
I do understand
That time here is short
I've lived and loved
Believe i did it well
Im not leaving you
Im just changing relms

I believed in forever
It was a lie
I think i told myself
When i feared to die alone
To many  close calls to many
Lost in time
And now my body's breaking down
It's my time

I remember when
I was a kid
Eat play sleep
All we did
Imagination
Fire flys
If i come back
I'll do it right next time

nevermind

Fuck this
Fuck that
Fuck her
Fuck them
Chng
Fuck this noise
Fuck this hype
Fuck your plan
Fuck your plight
Fuck your car
Fuck your wife
Fuck my life
Nevermind

Fuck punk
Fuck rock
Fuck hip hop
Fuck goth

Fuck your faith
Fuck your hope
Fuck your life
Fuck your dope
Fuck your cat
Fuck your dog
Fuck your goat
Nevermind

Fuck reason
Fuck season
Fuck soul
Fuck religion

Fuck your country
Fuck your shithole
Fuck your face
Fuck you asshole
Fuck your family
Fuck your kind
Fuck you all
Nevermind